The whole fam damly...

I think it's kinda crazy how when you are younger and growing up, you never want to spend time with your family because you are too cool and have better things to do, and now that I'm an adult and I don't get to see them very often, I just want to see them every day. I pretty much think that I am the luckiest girl alive because I have a great dad, an amazing mom, and three of the best brothers on this planet. I am so lucky to have the family that I have. I love them.

Meagan E. Wilkins...

Me and Meagan...

I used to give her good advice and now she gives me great advice...

She is what you call a lifesaver.

SO...There's this boy.

AND...He's kinda cute.

UM...That's all for now......

Solitaire

Today we had a break in class where we were supposed to go observe people in a building on campus. I walked down the stairs and had a seat at a table, not really knowing what I was looking for. I looked across the way and there was a man sitting at another table playing solitaire on his lap top. I was immediately overwhelmingly jealous of this guy. I wish i had time to sit on campus and play solitaire. Maybe he doesn't really have time. Maybe he's just procrastinating. What if he has tons to do, but just doesn't want to do it. Maybe he is with solitaire like I am with Myspace...no matter what I am supposed to be doing, I always want to check it. So maybe he loves his solitaire enough to put off school work and just play a few quick games. Or...maybe he has lots of time. What if he's not even a student here? Maybe he's some kind of sick, twisted person who comes to campus and sits in front of students who are having coronaries and stressing their lives and their semesters away, just to spite us with his carefree game of cards. Maybe this crazy solitaire man actually likes to sit amid the students who are paying thousands of dollars every semester hoping to become something better someday, and who are hustling around him with no time for a break. What if he plays his little game, all the while observing those around him; silently laughing to himself, "Ha ha! Keep hurrying by with your crazy, overwhelming lives. I'll just sit and play my lazy game of solitaire!"


OR...


Maybe I just need a vacation....

No one told me...

So...Im a senior at Utah State and this is my last semester before I student teach. Honestly, I had heard that this semester would be intense, but that is an understatement of how I really feel. Every day I sit in two classes that are 3 hours and 15 minutes long, and some days, (ok let's be honest, most days) I leave class feeling so overwhelmed that I want to cry a little. I've narrowed down some reasons for why this might be...
One reason is that I think that for the first time in my life, I feel like I am doing what I was meant to do. That puts an amazing amount of pressure on me to be the best. Two, I already know that I am super competetive, but I have found that I am really hard on myself, too. I'm my own most critical judge, and that isn't so good sometimes. And three, I just really want to be done. I'm honestly a little tired of where my life is right now. I want some stability. All I can say is that Tom Petty is a genius...the waiting IS the hardest part...ha ha...